For days that long gone past
i wish from depth of my heart
to one day see you like a different spark
spark of peace and hope in my new life
once i feared this light
like a shadow hiding, shunning away
every little piece of you
i could not take the truth
how rotten my soul in those times
those days full of hate
would you believe if i told you now
i might have felt the same way
i used to enjoy the lack of light
and the fear i struck in others
setting their heart ablaze with fright
how long could the journey from darkness of the past
take me and how long will it last?
why you~ do i have to ask?
Once i would run, i would flee
rather then close, far away i wished to be
I was not scared, nor frithened
or petrified...well not at that time
I didn't run from you or your light
nor warmth, but from me, you see?
was i lost? maybe a bit
on the edge of me i stood ready to jump
my mind going blank, my body feeling numb
just one step to fall, just one and only throught
but then i heard a voice, voice and kind words
Long burried and forgotten, and forbitten
by me due to longing, thus going insane
but how precious they are, how wonderful they sound
and how they wash away my pain
maybe i am lost and maybe i just used to be
long gone i was, maybe stone or tree, but not free
i used dismiss what was true and real
and what i through wasn't important to me
Once i would run, i would flee
once i would silence your voice i could hear
once i could not stand that sound, making me care about
but now i can't go on without